Perhaps i am irrevocably depressed and therefore cannot conceive the point to an existence, but this is the way i see it:
1. we were born without having okayed the genesis
2. we go to school, do our homework and extra-curricular activities, go to uni and then to work, or just to work, and sometimes engage in more extra-curricular activities that help us give meaning to our lives like praying to shrines and saying things like amen, doing yoga in hot rooms, attend expensive self-help conventions that are marketed as elite improvement centres but that are really a bunch of smart and not very nice people exploiting a bunch of dumb and vulnerable people, and the smart people use pop-psychology to teach lessons every person over 12 already knows, drink alcohol and smoke lots of things to forget, obtain hopeless addictions, fall in love only to have our hearts broken, or perhaps only have the impression of falling in love because the feeling is beautiful and can sometimes give meaning but as a relationship takes two to tango one can always break the other and then the person whose heart got broken loses the will to live, read lots of books, hang out with people (sometimes just to distract ourselves from existence), watch movies, do sport, and get laid.
3. the good things in life are transient, and the bad things in life seem to sink into our pores like mercury
4. rejection, financial troubles, family troubles, time troubles, idea troubles, troubles with humanity, hating humanity, climate change, politicians having all the power and none of the ideas, or morals, pollution, extreme poverty, disease, crime, xenophobia, homophobia, narrow minded rednecks, lack of education, bad health systems, hospitals that transmit disease, cancer, gross obesity and anorexia, are 0.00000000001 of the tip of the iceberg of the failures in this world. and some people, especially the people that have the power to, often so not care to fix them but only to live their lives in disgustingly superfluous luxury, like driving a new lamborghini is a better idea than helping a small town eat for a decade.

i want to roll over little colourful balls in a bright room while singing feeling good by nina simone and eating watermelon

after that i want to squeeze watermelon juice all over myself and roll over the little balls again

i want to ride a formidable stallion that likes me and who eats organic apples from my hand without biting me either on purpose or accidentally

i want to sing christmas carols to the rich houses at point piper during july and not stop until they give me some money. and when they do give me money i will thank them profusely and shake their hands for too long. but if they call the police i will run away very fast


i want to comment in nice ways on an older womans lip augmentation while smiling too widely and with my eyes opened too wide as well. i would also nod at the same time but only very subtley

after i comment nicely on an older womans lip augmentation i'd like to introduce the topic of poverty and say in low and reverent tones how i feel that we need to avoid the traps of the consumerism perpetuated by capitalism

i want to sleep in someones back yard and in the morning when they unlock the door walk inside and treat myself to breakfast

i would also like to make extra breakfast for the other people that might live there and wear their apron

i would also like to sit on someones doorstep reading a book and smoking a cigarette to see what the people would do and if they were nice i'd tell them some jokes. but maybe my jokes wouldn't be very funny because i'm not very good at telling jokes

i believe that true beauty does not exist

i believe that true beauty is beauty that is pure and untainted and I believe that all that is beautiful is tainted. even looking at a flower is terrible as it is a reminder of what we have done to this planet and how fucked humans are

i believe that life is like a toilet bowl because it’s constantly being defecated on. sometimes it is cleaned but people are constantly pissing and shitting all over it. and the crap that is flushed away just goes somewhere else and becomes someone else’s problem, unless something really bad happens like a pipe leak and then everyone worries about it

i believe that humans are the worst thing that could have happened to this planet. i think confucius was terribly wrong when he said that the root of all evil is indifference. i believe that the root of all evil are humans

i believe that true altruism is bullshit and anyone who believes in it is fucked. I believe that people do nice things for other people to make themselves feel nice about themselves or through a sense of duty or because they would otherwise look like jerks in front of other people

i believe judgment is unfair cause everyone is just as fucked as everyone else except of course for serial killers and rapists and people that do inconceivably fucked up things to other people, they are the most fucked up

I believe that people must believe in a god to make themselves feel better. because how can a god or gods exist who are meant to be omni-every-fucking-thing-considered-good when motherfuckers of events occur in this world. how does an anglican explain they are not protestant or methodist using logic? how does an anglican justify their beliefs in anglican-ism over baptist-ism when a king who beheaded a heap of his wives created the religion so he could stop killing women and divorce them instead? how does anyone who believes in a god logically justify their blind faith, when for EVERYTHING ELSE we rely on empirical evidence?

i believe that everything that exists on the planet earth should have been given a free choice to exist. without this free choice i am forced to endure something i wish i had nothing to do with

i wish i was a cheetah instead as they are the fastest animal on land. i wish had i needed to exist here i could have chosen not to be human and to be something else and to therefore not be a despicable part of a despicable species

humans I am sure of it will ruin themselves and the planet will spit them into death and will revive itself and be beautiful again in a long long time

i believe that humans are cruel and as i despise them i must despise myself